Tuesday, October 28, 2014

"Punkin Patch"

Last week we took the kids to an itty-bitty pumpkin patch in Idaho Falls. The babies were in heaven. We walked through the rows until we found a few that we liked. Remington probably put l5 pumpkins in the wagon. "ooh yook momma, I yike dis one...and dis one....oh yook at dis one too!" Olive's favorite part was looking at the chickens. That girl is obsessed with all animals. We left with two plump round pumpkins and they now reside on our doorstep. I decided to let the babies paint them this year because I am not in the mood to clean up pumpkin innards...gag. I love this time of year so much! We are trying to soak up this beautiful fall weather before the snow hits us (forecasted for this weekend, yikes!) I can't wait to take the babies ticker-treating on Friday, they are going to LOVE IT. I'm actually really just excited for the free candy, let's be honest...

 ^^I love when I can capture a smily Olive picture!
^^Rem, your hair...

 ^^Haha, we tried. 
 ^^12.5 weeks

Sunday, October 26, 2014

our little miracle

Thank you, thank you, THANK YOU
I am in tears over the amount of love and support we've received since announcing our pregnancy this week. This little miracle baby is an answer to our prayers! After two ultrasounds and hearing the most glorious sound of a heartbeat at our 12 weeks appointment, I feel like I can finally take a breath. The past 3 months have been been physically and emotionally taxing. Getting pregnant so quickly after our loss was stressful and confusing and brought on an entirely different mix of emotions than what I expected (more to come on that later), but we are so THRILLED!!! 

After our miscarriage in July, my Dr. told us that we were fine to conceive again as soon as we wanted. I desperately wanted to be pregnant but deep down I knew that I needed some time to process and grieve. I also wanted to allow my body time to heal. Much to my surprise, my cycle returned just a few weeks later. During that time, we decided that we needed to make a change. 
I was so depressed and so sad that we felt like moving and changing our surroundings might help boost our spirits. We found brand new apartment and scheduled our move-in date for September 1st. 
I was so excited to move! Going through our belongings and purging all of the crap we didn't need anymore helped keep me busy and had a bit of a healing affect. 

A few days before the move, I was packing up the bathroom and I found a box of pregnancy tests. 
My heart sunk deep into my chest. I couldn't handle the reminder of what I no longer had and it made me so upset. I threw them in the trash and continued to pack. The day before we moved I was cleaning up bathroom again and I saw the tests in the trash. I grabbed one and thought, "what the hell?" Before I even finished doing my business, two dark lines appeared instantly. 
My jaw dropped. No freaking way! I yelled to David in the next room. We were shocked and speechless!!

The next few weeks were a blur. We had an ultrasound to confirm dates and it was so nerve racking. Flash backs of our last ultrasound haunted me I was desperate to see a healthy baby. We were both relieved to see the most perfect little jelly bean baby and to see the heart beating rapidly. The nausea/all day sickness hit me like the day after I took the pregnancy test. It got so bad that I couldn't go a day without taking Zofran around the clock. I survived off of mashed potatoes and fried rice and ended up losing 17 lbs in 1 month! It was weird because I really was so grateful for the morning sickness (even though it is so, so awful) I knew that it was a good sign that the baby was developing and growing. 

After the first ultrasound the Dr. discovered that I had subchorionic hemorrhage (which is a a tear on the placenta) and I was put on modified bed rest for two weeks. IT WAS AWEFUL! The Dr. said if I had any bleeding that the hemorrhage is what would be causing it. Awesome. 
I was crippled with fear. Every time I went to the bathroom I just knew that It was all going to end. Thankfully I didn't have any bleeding. It has been emotionally difficult for me because I really felt like I couldn't connect with my baby. It could all end just as quickly as it started and I didn't want to feel let down.  It's really a terrible feeling...
I had to cut back from the going to the Crossfit gym which was hard too because I had stayed so active up until that point. But I was happy to take whatever precautions I could to keep my sweet little baby safe. 

We had another ultrasound just before we left to Disneyland to check the progress of the hemorrhage. Our prayers were once again answered and the Dr. said that It was completely healed! Our baby was still growing right on track and the heart beat was still nice and strong. I was so relieved and felt like I could actually enjoy our trip a little bit. (although it realllly sucked not being able to ride any of the roller coasters!)

After we got back, we had our 12 week appointment. Even after two healthy ultrasounds, I was anxious to hear the heart beat on the doppler. The Dr. found the heart beat instantly. It was literally music to my ears! I cried tears of joy. Laying there in the office and hearing that sweet pitter-patter was the first time that I felt like this was the real deal. I felt like a weight had been lifted off my chest and that I could finally start to connect with our miracle baby and enjoy this pregnancy.

I am so blessed and thankful for the opportunity to carry this baby. We pray everyday that he/she continues to grow. We are also so thankful for the thoughts and the continued prayers in our behalf and for all the support we have received. We are just so happy right now, I can not even begin to describe it. Here's to the next 7 months! 

Friday, October 24, 2014

We are thrilled to announce...

that we are expecting!!!
Our precious rainbow baby is due May 7, 2015!

~Details and updates coming soon~

Tuesday, October 21, 2014


^^How Rem does the airport^^

We are still recovering from our super awesome-jam-packed-fun-filled Disneyland vacation! Every day was go, go go. We tried to fit in as many rides, meals and activities as we could. We didn't want to miss out on anything.  The babies literally passed out from exhaustion every single night haha! We met up with 70 other family members which consisted of uncles and aunts and cousins and grandparents. We all stayed at the Disneyland Resort. 

The Disneyland Resort which was magical in itself. The headboard above the beds was a carving of the Disneyland castle and had LED firework lights that lit up and played music. The babies LOVED it!  Our room also looked out over the huge swimming pool area. It was gorgeous. I really liked that we were close enough to the park to come back to the hotel for naps. The tram was also just a few minute walk away and it took us right into the park. The kids loved riding it. 

It was so fun to experience the magic of Disneyland through their eyes. Remington was wide-eyed and mesmerized most of the trip. He was a trooper waiting in the long lines and throughly enjoyed every single ride. His favorites were "It's a small world" and the buzz light year ride. He still can't stop talking about them. Olive wasn't as thrilled about waiting in the lines but still "Oohed" and "Aahed" on the rides. I think her favorite part was the churros haha! Girlfriend could down a couple a day. 

For some reason my phone died mid-way through the day almost every single day. It was incredibly annoying because I felt like I wasn't able to capture all of the magical picture perfect moments. Although a little bummed, I'm happy with the ones we were able to capture and I'm so glad that we were able to create some amazing memories!
^^We took the stroller and the ergo carrier with us. Both were used equally as much. Rem walked a lot but was able to sit when he was tired. David wore Olive in line most the time because girlfriend did not like staying put haha! 
^^We probably consumed over a dozen churros between the 4 of us. They are my favorite.

^^The babies were so mad when they had to get off the merry-go round. 
^^Olive stealing diet coke. #momoftheyear
^^Remington begged us for a Mickey Mouse ice cream bar. They babies went to town!

^^In front of the castle. The babies were crying because the sun was to bright haha!
^^Olive fell asleep on the Pirates of the Caribbean ride on two separate occasions. Probably because it was dark and air conditioned :)

^^Rem was so excited to ride the choo choo train. He also carried that buzz light year gun around with him EVERYWHERE. 
^^Thanks for our one family photo Natassja! 
I can't wait to take the kids again in a few years!

Sunday, October 12, 2014


I realized that I haven't really photographed the babies on my "real" camera in a while so this afternoon I got it out and snapped a few photos of them together. This series lasted approximately 2.5 seconds before Olive wiggled free. It amazing how much they've changed just in the last few months. Remington's beautiful golden curls are getting longer and wilder and Olives rolls have been replaced with long and slightly less juicy toddler limbs. I love the stages they are in SO MUCH! 

We've been spending lots of time together since David started up school again. It's his last semester so he's been working hard to finish up strong. After his classes are done he works as a lead supervisor at at call center during the nigh shift. It's been hard transition for me having him gone morning and night. By the end of the week I am so worn out doing the single parent thing. I know it's only temporary so I'm trying my hardest to keep a positive attitude. 

Besides hanging with the babies all day, i've been keeping busy sewing shoes and doing some photography sessions on the side. It's nice to be able to set my own hours and still bring in a little bit of an income. 

We have a lot to look forward to in the next couple months. David is graduating with his bachelors in exercise physiology degree in December. He decided a few months ago that he wants to go the health care route and become a nurse practitioner. He is currently applying to accelerated bachelors of science in nursing programs. After he finishes that program which is only 12-15 months, he will get his RN and work for a few years and then apply for a nurse practitioner program. We've narrowed the ABSN schools down to our top 6. Applications are due next month and also a few in the spring, so we are anxious to see where we will end up!! 

Lastly, I almost forgot to add that we are flying down to DISNEYLAND next week! We are meeting up with our entire family and we are so stinking excited. The kids are going to have a BLAST so look forward to a million of pictures from the happiest place on earth. 

Happy Sunday!

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