IT'S A.....

GIRL!!!

Ah my gosh, I was shocked actually. 

We were both leaning towards boy. 

I went back and forth on whether or not we should find out the sex of the baby forever. 

And then a few weeks before my appointment my anxiety reared it's ugly head. 

I woke up in full blown panic attacks every single night. 

I couldn't sleep. 

I was a mess. 

I couldn't shut my brain off, thinking about everything that could go wrong with the little person growing inside me. 

I know I've shared a bit about my struggle with anxiety before.

Sometimes it's just too hard to put into words how I'm feeling. 

Pregnancy after a loss is just hard. 

So I get to my appointment and the sweet tech asks right away if I want to find out the sex. 

I said, "I don't know..."

And she goes "Ok, that's all right, I'll give you a heads up before we do any lower body measurements and then you can decide later." 

She squirted the warm jelly and held the wand to my bump. 

The first image appeared on the screen. 

There she was legs spread wide apart. 

There was no mistaking she was a she.  

We both laughed. 

The tech says "Well there you go!"

I teared up and couldn't stop smiling the rest of the exam. 

Baby E (yes she has been named!!! no middle name yet...David decided that on the 6th baby he all of the sudden has strong opinions on names...wth dude) was kicking a bunch while she was being measured. 

She checked out with a perfect bill of health, measuring right on track and already weighing in at 1 pound. 

The tech had a hard time getting a good view of her spine so I will be going back in two weeks to try again. 

I am just so happy she is ok. 

My anxiety has settled a bit since seeing her and finally being able to feel her move!

I for sure DON'T have an anterior placenta this time, YAY!!

The kids are soo excited for Baby E. 

I get all the heart eyeballs when I hear them pray for her at night. 

I can't believe I'm already half way done. 

January can't come soon enough.