These were taken the night before Remington was born,
hours before a mother was born.
I remember the mix of emotions I was feeling so vividly-
excitement/nervousness/anxiety/so ready to have my baby boy in my arms.
His birth was one of the scariest/hardest/happiest day of my life.
It makes me SO EMOTIONAL that four years went by, JUST LIKE THAT.
STOP GROWING UP PLEASEEEEE!
I found some photos from his birth that I thought I had lost-
I added them to his birth story post HERE.
Oh I still cry when I read it!
I'm so glad I documented my pregnancy with him.
I just love being able to go back and look at all the photos.
Look at the big, huge and round belly.
It was SO beautiful!
and it was so under-appreciated at the time.
It makes me SO sad to think back four years ago when I was embarrassed and even ashamed about my pregnant body.
I wish I could go back with all of my learned wisdom and tell this past self to just shut up and LOVE her body.
I would tell her to be happy and joyful and embrace those changes.
I would tell her to be thankful everyday that she even has the opportunity to carry and then birth a perfectly healthy child.
I would also tell her that the stretch marks DO fade and that yes, someday she will love them.
I have come a LONG WAY as far body image/self-love and appreciation.
It has been a journey in itself but I'm so grateful for it.
(Now if only my future self could come back right now and tell me that
someday I will sleep again...that would give me so hope HA!)